Apprehending what has apprehended

   

     Paul, once named Saul, was apprehended by the Lord, by the power of the Spirit, while riding along minding his own business of persecuting Christians. Years later, the now elderly Paul is saying he wants to "apprehend" what "apprehended" him.  He declares he does not count himself as having done that, but that he will forget things behind and press forward to the high calling of God in Christ Jesus. 

  I don't think the "high calling" has anything to do with the calling to be an Apostle, Pastor, etc.  It is the calling of God to come to Himself.  God is forever beckoning us onward to follow hard after Him, to keep reaching, keep trying to apprehend.  It is a life lived, reaching for God, never being satisfied with how much we have.  We can be satisfied with "what" we have, but not with "how much" we have.  

   I can never agree with those who think they have all of God there is to have.  I am always reaching for more.  This is what "glory to glory" is about.  This is the work of the Holy Spirit, apprehending us again and again with the glory of God, leaving us always wanting to to get hold of what has gotten hold of us.  Only in heaven, where He will change our "vile" body into a glorious one like His own will we be able to say "I have apprehended what apprehended me".  Until then, we keep reaching, we keep drinking, we keep experiencing, we keep thirsting and hungering, wanting to know Him more and more, wanting to experience Him more and more.

   Don't be content with how much of God you have experienced or think you have.  No matter what you have or what you have experience, there is more.  Much more!  Don't count yourself as having arrived, as having "apprehended".  If Paul couldn't, neither can you, my friend.  Keep reaching!  Keep pressing toward the mark, heeding "high calling".